Hey guys (well, ladies)! I took a little break, but now I decided to come back to ya'll. I had kinda taken a step back from blogging because KF kinda looks down on it. He thinks that me blogging is just me being anxious to tell "someone" all of my/our business. But more and more this week I have realized that I need to blog. That's right. I need to blog. Blogging not only gives me a different perspective on my problems/issues/achievements from people that are not directly connected with the issues, it also gives me an opportunity to clear my head. So don't be surprised if I start writing like 10 posts a day! lol.
So the past week's happenings:
*I met with dr. mix today and it didn't go well at all. She thinks the study that I have been working on since August has turned into a waste of time and resources. Forget the fact that every hang up I had with the study I told her about when it happened. Forget the back that out of the 250+ consents that I passed out and only got 40 back; and of the 40 only about 25 that were in the right age range i.e. usable. Oh yea, I need to get 25 kids. Forget all of that. I haven't been able to produce under the pressure of having my "own" study. So now she doesn't even know if she can write me a good recommendation letter?
*Things with me and KF have been going quite well. He has really been trying to be more "expressive" and stuff with his feelings. It seems like we are really done with CrazyThreesomeGirl =) and his some maybe come up and spending the weekend this coming Friday. We have been talking about moving in together and the "future"--and he has even been starting the talks! So for now, everything is cool.
*I am no longer really worried about finding a job. Maybe I am being silly about it or maybe God is just giving me peace about the situation, but I really haven't been thinking about it.
*My mom (step-mom) has really been scaring me lately. She has been overly accepting of KF. On the one hand it's cool because she is acting like she likes him, but on the other hand given his background I know she can't be that crazy about him. I guess I wish she would be more honest about it, instead of pretending that she likes him now and then trying to voice every concern she has ever had if things end up getting "super" serious.
*I feel like I am becoming a recluse of sorts and I don't know if it is good or bad. People that I have considered friends and have shared my life with, I am barely even talking to any more. idk--this year has been very interesting so far......
